Still The Same

Why is it that when it rains it pours ? It seems that Destiny is a smart ass debutant sitting in front of a crackling fireplace sipping a warm glass of brandy just waiting for you to notice the destruction she so carefully put in your path . Why is it that when something good comes into my life something tragic is soon to follow . Why cant destiny just make it easy for once ? Within a month ; I have fallen in love , Been diagnosed as being positive for Corona Virus , have been laid off from work and my favorite …. I have been notified that the man who raised me has 2 months to live and is barely cognicent. I don’t know what to do , I enjoy having control of my life and right now I have no control over any of it . Now i could handle everything as they come but it has just been one thing after another after another . My Dad Jason has always done his own thing , he has definatley been the Captain of his ship. The man has “Fear No Man” tattooed on his neck if that doesn’t sum up my father I don’t know what does . In the midst of my diagnosis I received a phone call from a man named John Jones who evidently is a childhood friend of my dad. He informs me that my Dad has been laid up in a hospital in Maui for the last two weeks . I had no idea that he was even sick , I mean he kinda always had shit going on but not to the this degree. He is going through Liver failure and has problems with his kidneys . I tried to talk to him on the phone but he can not hold a conversation with me for more than 2 minutes. Why did he keep his drinking from me ? How did it get this bad ? I’m 30 years old and now the medical power of attorney for my 49 year old father. I don’t want him to die , i was supposed to get my shit together , marry a good dude and have both my dads walk me down the aisle . I just feel like i wanna puke . I don’t know what else to say , if I didn’t get this out i was going to lose my fucking mind .